For you.

I finally give in.
You get what you want.
You always wanted me to let go so here you go.. I'm finally letting go.
My heart is official ripped out of my chest.
I do love you with all my heart.
This is terribly hard for me,
But Im only doing this for you and or your happiness.
I hope you find someone who makes you happier than I ever could.
This is all my fault I know and I have no one to blame but myself.
I really hate myself right now,
But if this is what it takes to make you happy then fine...
I'll do anything for you.. No matter how much it hurts...
I'll never forget our memories,
Or the times we shared..
You were the best thing I've ever had and I messed that up..
So this is for you..
I'll never forget you,
You taught me most of everything..
And you helped me grow and learn..
I thank you for everything..
Tough love or not I still loved you threw it all,
Your right I deserve everything that I've gotten, and all that is is hell.
You want the truth.
Heres the truth;
Life sucks.
I'm miserable with out you.
I cannot go a single hour without thinking about you.
^scratch that a single minute.
I've given up on love and hope.
Because without you I have none.
I don't care about how I look or what people think because in the end I was always just trying to impress and show out for you...
All I ever wanted was your attention and now I lost the best thing in my life..
At this point giving up on life itself sounds like the best option but..
I know you wouldn't want that..
So I'm gonna live my life for you and change my ways, and hope one day we cross paths and you see the person I know you know I am.
But until then, this is for you..
Always remember me..
Mmmmmmwwwwwah.<3
Never thought we'd have a last first kiss...

Thinking

Okay as long as I'm on and addicted to this whoooole thing.
I have some thing's to say,
1. I like you.
Don't push it,
and be cocky thinking you can get away with murder because you can't.
2. I have no life which is why I am always on Blogger/Facebook/tumblr/instagram/twitter and many more.
3. I wish I had something to do or atleast someone to talk too to occupy my time.
I love the feeling of getting things off my chest, if only I could tell you how I feel that would make me feel 1000000 times better.
Save that for another day.
Anyways, it goes on.

Everything I miss..

This is for you and me.

Weather you know it or not.
You're super special.
Never change because that would make me sad. 
I wish you knew how i felt but its hard to tell. 
Love is the one thing i wish i had, 
and it would be amazing to have with you.
You may say I'm a dreamer, 
but I'm not the only one. 

I am just one of many girls, who have many many dreams.
Wishing on too many stars.
Expressing myself and many many ways.
Looking for love in all the wrong places. 
Hope for the best, and away with the worst. 
Lately I've been looking for the one thing that makes me feel better, 
and all I want is to be heard. 


Lets hope i found that. <3